Everything you do in life, every decision you make, ultimately comes down to intention, your intention when you made this decision and ultimately, how conscious you were in making this decision.
I went to a talk on Wednesday night which centers around the teachings of Dharma and Buddhism and they spoke about karma and how the idea of karma ultimately comes down to intention. So if your intention on the decisions you are making is not conscious and therefore you are making bad decisions, you are going to suffer the consequences and visa versa, if you are very conscious of all the decisions you make, and have a positive intention in every way, you are going to have good benefits. So ultimately, it comes down to the importance of being present and conscious in everything that you do, every movement, every decision, everything.
So I thought about this for myself, more specifically, for myself the last two years and how much my decision making, my consciousness or everything I do, seemed to suddenly go out the window. So I went into protection mode and did everything I could do to be aware and conscious of every single thing I did, no matter how out of control and unaware all the time I felt. I was forced to be very very conscious.
Then I thought about no matter how conscious I have tried to be, how present I have tried to be, how much I have tried to set a clear, positive intention in everything I did, chaos would ensue so often and then I would see what would happen.
I also looked at how important it is to be conscious of everything you do and when you go through something traumatic, it’s just exemplified, how important this is. How you use your time, how you do everything and anything, because for myself, time was a premium. I never had a moment of peace or knew when I was going to be able to do something.
At the talk I thought about this, and things have begin to click more and more with this, and I then look at the last two years, up until this point, and how much the chaos everyday would insue and how much I would be unconscious in everything I did, and though my internal intention, which of course hasn’t changed, has always been to get better, and feel great all the time and do everything I want to do with my life, the intention that was being created, or my consciousness when I did things was not present.
And this will not come in a day, or a week, this is something that you will need to continue to work on. That I will need to continue to work on. And I look at my intention in everything I do needing to relate to my wellness, and moving my life forward and does this help me heal, can I do more to help me heal, does this really help me or create chaos. It’s ultimately me continuing to work on being present and making conscious decisions.
We are not perfect, there is no such thing as perfection, but we can work on, I can always work on, being conscious and present in everything we do, and setting the right intention in everything we do.
This experience has made me, forced me to be extra conscious in everything I do, and ultimately setting the right intention in everything I do, everything.
Ultimately, with Lyme Disease, with anything you are healing from, or building, you need to really be conscious of everything you do, say, etc because every little thing helps you move forward.