As I continue my healing process, I feel I am caught in the middle sometimes. Caught between me focusing solely on my healing and living my life as a 31 year old man. Even though my main focus right now is healing, and working on myself, working on getting myself balance, aligned, happy and healthy, I still have needs, I still have desires, I still have things I want and it’s hard to find the balance in that, the understanding in that.
I am the number one priority right now and my healing is the number one priority but I also need to live my life while this happening as well. It’s just hard to find the balance like I said and trying to be aware when I am doing to much or not enough.
I just feel sometimes I am caught in the middle.