As I am becoming more aware and more clear headed, it’s becoming harder and more painful. I just want this pain and this darkness in my life to end. I want to feel whole again and vibrant, healthy and happy. I want to be able to lay down and not twitch and not have a hard time breathing. I want to be in peace.
I went to a new doctor yesterday but I have to wait a few weeks for specific test results before anything can be determined, etc.
I know I am going to get through this because I did before and I am going to again but I would feel by now I would have one day I would feel good and whole. One day where I didn’t feel shaky and twitchy when I lay down. One day where I can eat and drink food in peace. One day where I was clear headed and vibrant and full of life. I know that day is coming but I want it to happen soon.