I have these moments where I feel okay. I feel good. I feel connected and feel like myself and then with an instant it goes away and it’s always when I eat something. I am still having rough nights, I am still having the same things happen, the only difference is I am much more aware of them and clearer about what’s going on.
Is it frustrating though, absolutely. Especially since lately my mood and drive is much better and I want to be doing things but I feel trapped or I feel the same things still happen and then that starts triggering more anxiety and more fear.
I know eventually I will break this cycle and come back into balance and feel in the flow of life and again and feel alive but it’s been really frustrating and sometimes I don’t know what to do to be honest.