When you drag your body around day in and day out, all you have to rely on is faith, faith to get you back to feeling whole again, faith allowing you to actually be doing enough each day to get you back to balance and get your life back. At the end of the day, it really is about faith and for me it’s all been about faith and even still to this day.
It’s a feeling that probably most people will never experience in their life. A feeling that you are not in control of you body and cannot make the decision or do the things you want to do each day because you are just stuck, stuck in this vicious cycle. So you do rely on faith, because that’s ultimately all you have.
Faith day in and day out when you still feel things two years later even though you are hitting the bacteria as hard as you can. Day in and day out as you see days go by and just knowing that you are doing enough are enough and that this isn’t your life.
You just keep striving ahead and rely on something called Faith.