When you go through a transformation, when you shift, you start to let things go and you start to let things go a little more. Until you get to a point where you have to let go of it all. Everything. Not most of it. Not almost all of it. Everything.
For a long time, I believe I held onto things. Whether it be me going out, or writing my book, or being oblivious to how I really felt. I held onto something to some extent. Sure, it served its’ purpose at the time, but I was still holding on to a degree.
Over time, I have actually in many ways done less and less, though I felt better in many other ways. Over the last month or so, I have really let go of everything, partially because it has been one of the more intense months I have had in years and it is what has needed to happen to fully heal.
A friend of mine, when I first started not feeling well, said your job right now is to get better, and nothing else. I knew that and I definitely focused on that tremendously, but to some degree I might have held on to other things, and part of that was fine, me feeling better and part of the process, but I have finally come to a point where that is my total focus, first and foremost. Health is number and I have let go of it all, to fully transform and fully heal.
I trust the universe that is fully healing me and getting to the place where I want to be and healthier and happier then I have ever been in my life and I can truly feel that.