I feel in some crazy way everything comes full circle and your life does some how work out the way you want it too.
I learned at the beginning of this journey that I had to put everything to the side. This was mainly about not having the mental energy, etc to do other things but was also just not in my mind perspective and also most of all not where I was supposed to put my energy. My energy was always supposed to be focused on my health and once that is in the place it should be all of these other things would come together.
I would move through the world, drive to Los Angeles, etc and always play out this feeling of wanting to do things but saying not yet, not yet, knowing everything I want is still there.
well, slowly things are not so much feeling pushed to the side anymore. They now there for taking and most of all there for me to break free.