When you wake up in the morning, you should not have to force yourself to orient. You should not have to be reliant on the cycles of the pathogens or feeling a certain way. Well that’s been the nature of everything the last four years, just moving through and moving through essentially waiting for everything to just click.
You can say all of this is faith that one day it will, or hope, or whatever you may call it. But for me, essentially it has been about just knowing that one day it will eventually all click. One day everything will just feel right again and make sense again.