For however much I have gone out, done work, tried to live my life, nothing else has really mattered to me but feeling 100% all the time. And as time has gone by and layers have been broken, I have been working towards and working towards and working towards that deepest layer of all.
At this point, I mean I have said this before, countless times it seems, that I am finally at the deepest layer in all of this. I actually truly feel it, and part of it is that I don’t feel so much I am searching and worrying like I was constantly doing. I feel I am finally in alignment with everything finally coming together.
It has definitely been a difficult journey. A difficult journey of being dragged around it felt like not ever experiencing anything or feeling like I ever felt right and putting everything on hold and constantly, constantly waiting.
The deepest layer of all is probably the hardest but I know once it breaks, I will be set free.