I am not going to tell you the last three plus years have been easy. I am not going to tell you that even at this point I am 100% and don’t feel so much emotion and feeling and even symptoms and patterns and the same cycles but less intense on a daily basis. I am not going to tell you I don’t still get frustrated at times and still don’t ever seem to feel 100%.
in many ways I still feel I just play out the motions of my day continuing the same patterns and same cycle waiting for things to shift.
I have been through so much pain and so much emotion and so much of this place that I never seem to get out of. This place that you just feel trapped inside your own Body and seemingly can’t ever escape and never have a moment to yourself number of the moment of peace number of the moment I’m actually feeling good.
And to heal, you need to go to the deep things you put to the side. The hard difficult times and difficult things you could not process and let go of at the time or feel because your mind wasn’t clear and you were doing everything you could just stay afloat and stay present and stay alive and stay here.
The journey that is Lyme Disease is a scary one and difficult one and that can be put to a halt if caught early enough, the problem is that happens so rare and so much suffering and so much pain, and so much chaos and sickness happens that should not.
The journey that is Lyme Disease is not an easy one, but in the end you become stronger and better and evolve into a different person. You begin to have more faith in yourself and the universe. You begin to break habits you think would have never been broken and you start to deal with things you never thought you would. You become clear in your path, clear what you need to do and focus on yourself.
The journey that is Lyme Disease has not been an easy one for me and I am not still not 100% and every time I turn a corner and think I am there, another layer comes at me. But the thing is I won’t stop until I am symptom free, feel better then I ever have in my life, living the life I want to live and have moved on 100% from Lyme and have it never come back.