I found her. Meaning, I found a specific healer I have been searching for for probably at least five years. At the beginning of this journey, I knew there was something deeper going on at the root of all of this and blocks that I needed to break through. I always knew there was somebody out there that would help me through this. This is beyond anything tangible and straight forward like Bee Venom Therapy, antibiotics, ozone, etc. This was deeper then that and almost something that couldn’t be explained.
So through the last five years I have found different elements of healers and either the timing wasn’t right on my end or more so, they were not the right fit and all of this was until yesterday when I found her. I found the person that was going to help me get through the blocks on every level and get me to the promise land.
So yesterday, when I first met this woman, I knew right away it was her. It was the person I was seeking. We spoke for a good amount of time so she can get a background of who I was and my energy and what I was looking for and then she proceeded to do different modalities of bodywork on me while being so present, so aware and so in tune and speaking with me at the same time. I mean everything about it felt right and my body felt so open and free afterwards and it was on a level that almost words can’t be described. I know this is the first of many sessions with her.
But the thing I think that was so interesting about all of this was I have seen a lot of healers, I have seen a lot of doctors and so on and so forth and so often nothing felt right about the experience on any level or something would be off or it be good and right but not totally there but with her everything was in sync. It was magical. It was absolutely incredible and most of all it shifted things and opened the door to alignment of mind and body and the direction of putting all the pieces together.
I found her.
I don’t blog like I used too. I actually haven’t blogged in quite awhile. I guess I am finally moving into another chapter in my life and this transformation is finally moving through. I am not saying this because I will totally stop blogging, but because I don’t need blogging like I used too.
i think about almost all of the last five years and how often to me the day would be just done. The day would not really be over but I would just get to certain times of the day or even in the beginning of the day and the day would be done before it was over.
Things aren’t like that anymore, subconsciously they feel like they are because I became so immersed in it everyday.
Yeah it is weird and taking adapting but it is happening, adjusting to life again and actually having a much more expansive world and doing more with the day and it ha wonderful. Finally the day doesn’t feel like it is done. It feels like everyday it is just beginning.
I don’t blog nearly as much as I used too. Maybe because I am busy with other things and maybe because I am finally expanding my world and moving on from the last five years. Regardless, it has definitely been surreal.
Today, five years ago, my life shifted and I have floating on this journey, this transformation ever since. Trying to find my new self, evolve, heal and feel complete and balanced on every level.
Who would have thought it would have taken this long to get here. Taken this long if non existence and uncomfortability. This long journey.
so here I am, five years later, and though I am not quite there, I finally truly feel I am in the final stages of healing and most of all breaking free with a expanded world, caught up to myself and able to do anything I desire, which I haven’t felt in five years. The cycle is complete.
So much of the last five years, no matter what I would be doing and how “fun” it may be, I would ask myself when can I lay down? When can I just go home to my room and escape this all?
sure, I have accomplished a lot in many ways dealing with what I have dealt with the last five years but I also spent the majority of it not in the world and laying down and keeping to myself, essentially waiting to break free. Being part of the world is much more my nature then anything.
i still lay down more then I want, though things are better then ever, but I am ready to get to the point that I only lay down here and there when I choose to rest and balance.
I know this is something I have written about before but it seems to be a theme that comes up a lot. This putting everything on hold as you wait and wait and wait.
Day have flown by the last almost five years mostly because of the way I have felt.
also, each day as I have seemingly become more and more aware, and breaking through layers and moving through, it has been one thing or another, which can be really frustrating.
after years of this, I have learned how be positive and calm the mind no matter how I feel. And as I have become more aware and more positive, and do more, it would seem more stuff would come up and affect me in new ways. It was almost like I would open one door and there would be another door and another door and another door.
For almost five years I have learned to adapt and trust and be positive no matt r what.
I have been blogging for over four and half years through my Lyme journey and through this time I know there have been a few people that have followed my blog almost the whole time. So, if you are one of these people who has followed my blog for awhile, I want to hear from you. I want to know what you have seen, how I have helped you and anything else you want to share.
you can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org