I don’t blog like I used too. I actually haven’t blogged in quite awhile. I guess I am finally moving into another chapter in my life and this transformation is finally moving through. I am not saying this because I will totally stop blogging, but because I don’t need blogging like I used too.
i think about almost all of the last five years and how often to me the day would be just done. The day would not really be over but I would just get to certain times of the day or even in the beginning of the day and the day would be done before it was over.
Things aren’t like that anymore, subconsciously they feel like they are because I became so immersed in it everyday.
Yeah it is weird and taking adapting but it is happening, adjusting to life again and actually having a much more expansive world and doing more with the day and it ha wonderful. Finally the day doesn’t feel like it is done. It feels like everyday it is just beginning.
I don’t blog nearly as much as I used too. Maybe because I am busy with other things and maybe because I am finally expanding my world and moving on from the last five years. Regardless, it has definitely been surreal.
Today, five years ago, my life shifted and I have floating on this journey, this transformation ever since. Trying to find my new self, evolve, heal and feel complete and balanced on every level.
Who would have thought it would have taken this long to get here. Taken this long if non existence and uncomfortability. This long journey.
so here I am, five years later, and though I am not quite there, I finally truly feel I am in the final stages of healing and most of all breaking free with a expanded world, caught up to myself and able to do anything I desire, which I haven’t felt in five years. The cycle is complete.
So much of the last five years, no matter what I would be doing and how “fun” it may be, I would ask myself when can I lay down? When can I just go home to my room and escape this all?
sure, I have accomplished a lot in many ways dealing with what I have dealt with the last five years but I also spent the majority of it not in the world and laying down and keeping to myself, essentially waiting to break free. Being part of the world is much more my nature then anything.
i still lay down more then I want, though things are better then ever, but I am ready to get to the point that I only lay down here and there when I choose to rest and balance.
I know this is something I have written about before but it seems to be a theme that comes up a lot. This putting everything on hold as you wait and wait and wait.
Day have flown by the last almost five years mostly because of the way I have felt.
also, each day as I have seemingly become more and more aware, and breaking through layers and moving through, it has been one thing or another, which can be really frustrating.
after years of this, I have learned how be positive and calm the mind no matter how I feel. And as I have become more aware and more positive, and do more, it would seem more stuff would come up and affect me in new ways. It was almost like I would open one door and there would be another door and another door and another door.
For almost five years I have learned to adapt and trust and be positive no matt r what.
I have been blogging for over four and half years through my Lyme journey and through this time I know there have been a few people that have followed my blog almost the whole time. So, if you are one of these people who has followed my blog for awhile, I want to hear from you. I want to know what you have seen, how I have helped you and anything else you want to share.
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Can you believe that I have been blogging for over four and half years. Can you believe I have been dealing with this, for over four and half years and still not to the promise land and totally where I want to be yet.
Whenever I think about this, it seems surreal and almost unbelievable. Four and half years ago so often feels like yesterday and so often each day seems to blend into another, but the times they are a changing.
after over four and half years of scatteredness. Four and half years of waiting and searching. I finally feel clear in my health path and life path. Am I quite where I want to be yet, not quite but I finally don’t spend most of the day feeling lost and searching and scattered.
life, here I come.