Through the last two years plus, I have read a lot of books on the metaphysics of wellness and disease. At the end of the day, something I have mentioned, no matter how many pills you take or how much you detox, exercise, etc, if you don’t get to the root of the underlying causes of your illnesses, or “disease” it will always linger or just come back.
I then look at myself and look at have been the root causes of my transformation, my challenge, what has needed to be worked on and brought to the surface.
So, I go back to when I first got sick or a little bit before I started not feeling well and look at what was going on in my life. I look at that I was 30 years old and from a universal/spiritual stand point was coming into the end of my Saturn Return, which is considered a big transformation point in your life. I was not in the place I wanted to be in my life, I was in some ways going backwards and kind of flying by the seat of my pants in a sense. In a sense, I was losing my power, losing my identity and in some ways felt lost.
As I started not feeling well and in many ways started going in a spiral, I just got worse and worse and went in a circle. I lost my power, I lost who I was, I lost myself and I began to feel scared and trapped.
All these symptoms started getting the best of me, the bacteria and other invaders started taking over and also were getting the best of me.
So, I then take this and look at the correlation between what I was experiencing and going through and the roots metaphysical causes in relation to my symptoms, etc and they correlate to the deeper feeling I had.
The feeling of losing power, feeling lost, losing my identity, being fearful, unfocused and just don’t feel like I have a place in the world. The feeling of just feeling trapped and isolated as well.
The thing is by allowing all these feelings to come in and overwhelm me and consume me, it just makes the physical symptoms feel worse and expands on them. The more I allow these feelings, these things to consume me and these thoughts to take over my mind and body, the more I feel trapped, lost, sick and going in the wrong direction.
By not allowing these things to consume me, by taking my power back, my identity back, overcoming fear, changing my life, shifting my life for better, letting go, transforming, I get to the root of the causes of the symptoms and why I shifted and transformed and eventually break and fully heal.